Sometimes, I wish I could cry in the open
Sometimes, I wish I could scream out of pains
Sometimes, I wish I could fall to the ground
Because it’s just too heavy to bear.
I smile in the open while my tears flow in the secret
I laugh wildly outside while pains consume me on the inside
I stay on my feet to strengthen those who depend on me to stand.
Because, believe it or not,
I don’t have the liberty to cry in the open
I can’t fully express the agony I feel inside
Because on my shoulders rests the destiny of generations.
Inspired by Christ’s agony on the Mount of Olives.
41 And He was withdrawn from them about a stone’s throw, and He knelt down and prayed,
42 saying, “Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not My will, but Yours, be done.”
43 Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him.
44 And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly. Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground.